Things are now thoroughly in perspective.
I spent the entire night with James Major, just trying to figure things out. Like I said (read last post for info), we intended to get Brian down at the job to take him to meet Cody, get Cody to sign the application, and also talk with Brian to get some answers. We break it in easy-like, first hitting questions about the job. Then when he says things are gravy, we explain why we're asking. Then...We start talking about Jim and mine's arguement, and I asked Brian to be straight. What's going on?
After a bit of toeing things, we get it done. And the story comes to this: there was a point about a month ago that Jim was behind on some money. Buying new laptops will do that. And maybe he was a little mad that I loaned money to Major instead of giving it to him, but as I explained to him...That money was coming back to me. If I just gave money to Jim, it wasn't coming right back. So Jim said he was going to ask Peter to loan him money. I said, "fuck that. Peter owes you money. Just call it. If he wants to save his own place where he lives, he'll hand it over."
So Jim went, came back, said he got the money. It was loaned, he didn't listen, yada yada. I thought he just begged Peter..But this wasn't the case. He uh..Didn't beg.
He cut a deal with Peter.
If Peter pays all that month's rent, Jim said he'd kick me outta the house. Jim sold me for money.
Now...As much as I was disappointed with Jim for not standing up for me earlier in this process, I still trusted him, and still did until yesturday. I thought, he's an honest person--sometimes painfully so. I didn't think there was a dishonest bone in his body. I took that for face value. This was the guy I once saved from being sued by rounding up a plethora of resources to equal out to $3,000. This is the guy I used to go to work with on the super rainy days because I knew he'd be down, and I loved his company. This is the guy I'd called my best friend, once.
Now I see the repayment, I was money exchange in a deal. You know, it's funny, this recently came up in a conversation between a friend of mine...About money, and everyone having a price. My friend was convinced someone had a price for about anything, and I said, "Yeah, maybe on some things..A lot, even. But friends? I could never betray people I considered to be my friends for money, no matter how big the sum." and we both agreed at that after talking about it. I'm really, really angry. Mind you, this is third-person information. Well, second, because Brian now confirms Jim said this was the case.
And I obviously can trust Brian.
But I haven't talked to Jim personally yet. I don't even know that I want to, at this point.
To my game people: Brian and Wally, Matt and Mike. I'm sorry, I kinna doubt I'll make game tomorrow. I'm not really feeling up to it at all. Just the thought of playing the part of jovial room mate with Jim makes me very, very angry. As for me? I think I'm just going to have to tell Cody I gotta go soon, quit my job, rip up the apartment applications infront of Jim's face, and get ready for Sacramento. I'm not SURE this is what I'm going to do, but I'm just out of anything optional I have the energy to do. I'm so sick and tired of it, and the emotional towel's being readied for a tossing in.
Song "Trust" is on repeat.
Walker Pennington.
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